God is a Refuge

and Fortress



As most of you know,
my Only Son,
Jonathan Josue Martinez
went to be with the Lord a couple days ago.
I cannot even begin to explain the pain I feel.
At times it feels like there will never be a tomorrow.
At times it feels like God forgot to answer my prayers.
At times I feel so very alone...
At times ...... At times ...... At times....
This is the hardest trial I have ever gone through.
The only way I will make it is by the help of God.
Though I know Jonathan is in Heaven
(I am eternally grateful to God)
My Son is gone from me on this earth.
No more huggs. No more I love you's.
I won't be able to make him tortillas again.
He will not be here to make me
my favorite coffee again.
My Son is with Jesus now.
Sister Joy has taught you for many years,
through Bible Studies and Prayer Meetings.
I've tired to be transparent and open about my life.
By now you know of some hard trials that I have
faced through the years, but.... there is nothing
that compares to loosing my Son.
However in the midst of my pain,
Sister Joy will call on Jesus
because Jesus is where my help comes from.
My tears flow like a river,
but my God is collecting all of them.
And someday God will wipe all the tears
from my eyes.
Sister Joy has to stand on God's Word to give me strength
moment by moment.
I am so Thankful for all the Memories
I had with my Son. He was the Best Son
a Mother could have.
I'm going to miss my Son
more than words can say.

Life will not always be easy people.
There will be days that we may feel like we will
not make it.
Sister Joy has shared her heart one more time,
so you can see that we all face trials and pain
in this life. When these times come,
we have to keep our Faith in
what Jesus did for us on Calvary.
The same place I gave my heart to Jesus,
is where I go when I am hurting. Sister Joy finds an Altar of Prayer
and I go back to Calvary where the Blood of Jesus Freely Flows.
The Blood of Jesus is the only thing strong enough
to heal my broken heart.
Jonathan, my Son, Momma will meet you in Heaven.
I promise you that. Nothing will ever stand in the way of
me seeing My Son again.
You see people, we have to keep our eyes on Jesus
through all our pain, even when we loose a Child.
Sister Joy still says,
God is Faithful! Father God is a Good God! His ways are
Higher than mine. I will trust my Heavenly Father even
though I do not understand.

Jonathan's Favorite Song was

"Good Good Father"

"Oh, I've heard a thousand stories of what they think You're like
But I've heard the tender whisper of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you're pleased
And that I'm never alone

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who You are, it's who You are, it's who You are
And I'm loved by You
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am

Oh, and I've seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we're all searching
For answers only You provide
Cause You know just what we need
Before we say a word

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who You are, it's who You are, it's who You are
And I'm loved by You
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am

Cause You are perfect in all of Your Ways
You are perfect in all of Your Ways
You are perfect in all of Your Ways to us

You are perfect in all of Your Ways
You are perfect in all of Your Ways
You are perfect in all of Your Ways to us

Oh, it's love so undeniable
I, I can hardly speak
Peace so unexplainable
I, I can hardly think

As you call me deeper still
into love, love, love

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who You are, It's who You are, It's who You are
And I'm Loved by You
It's who I am, It's who I am, It's who I am

You're a Good Good Father
(You are Perfect in all Your Ways)
It's who You are, It's who You are, It's who You are
And I'm Loved by You
(You are Perfect in all Your Ways)
It's who I am, It's who I am, It's who I am


Psalms 91

“He who dwells in the secret place
of the Most High
shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
I will say of the LORD,
He is my Refuge and my Fortress:
My God;
in Him will I trust.
Surely He shall deliver You from the snare
of the fowler,
and from the noisome pestilence.
He shall cover You with His feathers,
and under His wings shall You trust:
His truth shall be your
shield and buckler.
You shall not be afraid for the terror by night;
nor of the arrow that flies by day;
Nor for the pestilence that walks in darkness;
nor for the destruction that wastes at noonday.
A thousand shall fall at your side, and ten thousand
at your right hand;
but it shall not come near you.
Only with your eyes shall you behold and see
the reward of the wicked.
Because you have made the LORD,
Who is My Refuge, even the
Most High, Your Habitation;
There shall no evil befall You,
neither shall any plague come near Your dwelling.
For He shall give His Angels charge
over you, to keep you in all your ways.
They shall bear you up in their hands,
lest you dash your foot against a stone.
You shall tread upon the lion and the adder;
the young lion and the dragon shall you
trample under feet.
Because He has set His Love upon Me,
therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on
high, because he has known My Name.
He shall call upon Me, and I will answer Him:
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him, and honor him.
With long life will I satisfy him,
and show him my Salvation."